Lately I've been feeling kind of shitty about my art. I feel like a lot of stuff needs to get done, right now, a lot of changes and sheeyut needs to be gettin' down right now.

For one thing I'm really unsatisfied with my colour choices? Like I feel like my natural sense of colour coordination/theory needs a lot of work so I'll probably need to start researching/practicing that really soon. I also realized that I tend to stick around with the dark half of the colour spectrum on PaintBBS and I want to start trickling into the brighter half. Get some bright hues up in durr. Also, I really suck at flesh tones. ): Sigh.

So yeah that's one thing.


I recently met and and they both had sooo many drawings in their sketchbooks! And things of quality! It made me feel kinda lame so I'm going to make it a little personal goal to draw at least one thing every day. It's only been a day so far lol but so far so good?! I just have to work on not forgetting!

I feel like I haven't improved at all so hopefully ^ will help move that bullshit progress along as well. ajfhjdfsd I get so stressed out thinking about how I should be able to render at a higher amount of quality or something.

Another thing I need to do is buy myself a tablet. The one I have seems to have hit a bad point (I have such awful luck with electronics sometimes. :/ ). So I mean *coughshamelessplug* I do have commissions open and it won't be long before i get the two on my waiting list done so why not hit me up? [link] They're pretty cheap, I think. I'd really appreciate it if some people could plug me around, but I won't get mad if you don't, because frankly I'll probably forget I even asked. It's just kinda hard to save up for a tablet because my main focus is on a car and my job is kinda sucky, but... once I get a car, is it going to sap up so much funds that I won't be able to save for anything anymore? Shit. I should calculate that out. (Speaking of commissions I feel like the quality I sell for is pretty fucky too so I would like to find a new way to make them look prettier for you guys)

Anyway, since I don't have a tablet and getting to do digital art is such a bother now I should probably start getting more acquainted with traditional media again eh? Back in the day I used to finish things traditionally, but that was a long time ago, haha.

I also feel like my anatomy has been really blah lately, like my structure of things is off and just that in general it needs more work. My art club is going to hire a new nude model soon (I fucking missed the first one! I was so mad) so that would be good, but just... I feel like in general I'm not satisfied with where I am, I expected/hoped I would be along a lot better than this and it's just a big fat steaming turd of disappoint.


I'm sorry everyone! PS, if there's something else you think I would benefit focusing on that I did not mention here, please let me know. (:! I mean, what's something you guys want to see out of me?

On a more positive note, my Nanowrimo is going along really smoothly, I feel like I could really channel the motivation that I used for it into other things like... say... Gradient Baby?! Let's hope, let's hope. I think I'm going to use December to work on a script for GB, instead of revising my Nano like everyone else would be doing. I don't really see a point in revising it because I have no intention on letting something as cheesy as my story getting published, haha.



here's the big question I promised--since I don't have a subscription, I can't make a poll. )': IF YOU COULD SEE ME DRAW SOMETHING WHAT WOULD IT BE? Whether it would be uploading school projects, more of my characters, fanart of whatever, etc, just throw it out there, since I've never asked that before.

[link] Just commission info one more time, for good measure.